Do you ever want to tear up because you're both happy and sad at the same time? Looks like I'm back to angst-filled rambles but it's familiar territory. Well it's Thursday night and it seems like the right time to conclude all these emotions for the week and make Friday amazing.
This week has made me so incredibly appreciative of some people in my life. There have been many other days when I lament endlessly about how nobody understands and how I feel so hollow and unimportant, but this week has made all of that invalid. There are some things you just know, even if no one says a word, you just know. Honestly I'm on the verge of tearing up just by writing this (I have no idea why I'm so emotional right now), but I really appreciate the raw, honest and sincere moments of the week that I still think about at 1am before I sleep. I know I don't confide in people very often, but I genuinely appreciate you and everything you have done for me/to me (even those you aren't aware of).
This week has also made me want to be a better person because I am tired of letting people down. I'm also tired of drowning in the sorrows of others. Unhappiness is contagious and I guess it's unfair to impose your own unhappiness unto people who only mean well. There's a difference between sharing your troubles with someone and just throwing your troubles onto someone like they owe you a favour. All I need at this point in time is to surround myself with people who bring out the best in me. Maybe it sounds like a line from a clichéd self-help book, but it's something that I have said repeatedly this past week. How often do you find people who make you feel right at home in the most foreign places anyway?
Third week of school, you have frayed me at the edges and you have stirred up a hell lot of emotions, but surprisingly I have loved every bit of it, even the parts I hated, so thanks.
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