Save me from my old ways

It's amazing how the songs I listen to can make me feel like I've gone into another dimension, away from reality, and it's this feeling that keeps me coming back for more.
I dyed my hair brown today (with help obviously because I have no clue how to do this kind of things) and I'm liking it a lot, except for the fact that the ends of my hair is a very very faint brown so I looks like my old hair colour......bugging me quite a bit but it's okay. Hope it'll turn out browner next time. Meanwhile, time to walk in the sunlight more often.
I'm watching x-men 2 tomorrow night and I am stoked because who isn't??? I'd say this weekend was good, even though I missed out on my empire's bbq dinner thanks to assignments. But I managed to complete 2 pieces of work and I met up with Arina and primary school classmates!!! Doesn't really sink in that I haven't seen their faces in over four years but now that we've met once already, we need to do it much more often so it will become less awkward over time haha but I had fun. I feel much more sociable around them because there's so much room for conversation that you don't have to be on your phone to avoid awkward silences you know?
Sometimes I think I'm terrible at socializing. In real life obviously. I could be in a room alone with someone I know but not really know and be a loser at holding a proper conversation. It's not like I don't have anything to ask, but I just end up reasoning with myself that my questions aren't that important so I don't have to ask. What an annoying habit, why do I do that?
Been thinking about how 16 is such a confusing age. 16 is when you're just figuring out what you want to do with your life and sometimes you just feel like you're messing up all the time. 16 is when you can feel so happy with yourself one minute and be crushed by self-loathe in the next. It's when either you've found a boy you fancy who fancies you too or you're just done with falling in love. Even though 16 can feel like shit at times, I want to hold on to being 16 because truly, 16 was hella fun too. Forget o'levels, forget choosing your future, but the things you did and people you met at 16. Are you remembering the good stuff now? When you're 16, you know but you don't really know at the same time, which keeps things interesting I guess. Honestly, I feel like being 17 isn't any different from being 16. It's like some odd number which just squeezed itself between 16 and 18. I hope in a few years to come, when I look back on the issues that bothered me when I was 16, I'll laugh, shake my head and say "how silly".
Midnight mental block so goodnight! X