Ambivalence

Hi friends! Wasn't sure what to name this post so I decided to just throw in a word I recently learnt haha I hope that doesn't make me seem snobbish.

[am-biv-uh-luh ns]
noun
1. uncertainty or fluctuation, especially when caused by inability to make a choice or by a simultaneous desire to say or do two opposite or conflicting things.
2.  the coexistence within an individual of positive and negative feelings toward the same person object, or action, simultaneously drawing him or her in opposite directions.

How relevant.

Anyhow, I'm in a particularly good mood today, God knows why, which is great and I'm gonna take advantage of that especially since yesterday was a pretty shitty day until at night when I could finally watch Criminal Minds S1 and lie in bed haha. Probably because I don't have to work today, not saying I don't like working or anything, it's just that there's something superior about being able to do what you want when you want it and where you want it. Work has been fine, really helps me with that don't-be-so-affected-by-what-people-say-to-you thing I've been trying to work on. It can't help but get a little mundane sometimes especially because I don't really know anyone there but they're usually nice so just gotta deal with it.
Today being Friday also has some part to play in the good mood thing because WEEKEND, actually last weekend before CNY! I'm actually working at some junctures in the CNY period, so that's gonna be an experience. But I'm not gonna lie, of course I'm looking forward to the visiting more!! Yeah and I'm one of those people who like to plan what to wear for CNY wayyyyy before-hand so yes haha you might get the chance to see it if I take any photos.
Yesterday I kind of had this moment where I decided I'm gonna take that "healthy lifestyle" thingo more seriously haha even though I've become more conscious of what I put into my mouth lately, it's not like a huge deal yet. So, no more worrying without doing anything to solve the problem, no more waiting till the next day to do it. I really gotta make this a habit which is going to take a while because for the past 3 days I've been reminding myself to wear a watch out which did not happen at all on all 3 days. So yeah, have to eat cleaner hahaha Nat's recipe on T&S has made me interested in doing something with oats and fruits. Have to run more often (I've seriously slacked which is terrible) (another reason why I actually miss having training now), maybe start swimming again lol during my checkup for my curved spine which is apparently common, the doctor told me to swim to "strengthen my back muscles" so yep. And start picking up those dumbbells again. Why are dumbbells called dumbbells?? Okay so I've put down my plan in black & white with you as a witness! Let's see where this takes me in the days to come. I actually like the feeling of muscle aches. And I'm so much more into a radiant tan rather than fair skin.
I can't wait to go out with my friends soon :( feel like I haven't seen them in a while. Okay have a great weekend everybody I'm gonna go indulge in some 8tracks mixes xx

One more thing: read a comment left by someone on a previous post, made my day. I really like doing this, thank you dear person (still don't know your name) k bye!