It feels so great to discover something new about yourself. I used to think I was pretty adventurous because that's quite uplifting to the soul, but actually I like to stick with familiarity, and things that I know will not unexpectedly kick me in the ass or something. It could be something as simple as listening to music you don't normally listen to and actually liking it. I love that feeling. In fact, I'm feeling it right now.
Or it could be something a little more enthralling, like falling in love. The way your hand intertwines with another, how his lips feel against your forehead, how exceptionally genuine words sound when he says them - I could go on. Suddenly, you're feeling all sorts of feelings you've never felt before. Light, fluttery ones you think about constantly, and also sombre yet sanguine ones that keep your feet on the ground. Sometimes it leaves you speechless, how in the most unexpected of times, this one person comes into your life and changes the way you view yourself and the world.
I have taught myself to live in the present so much more recently that I don't think about the future as often now. Not that thinking about the future isn't a good thing, but sometimes it's scary as shit, but I guess there is no point dreading the future because we're gonna change anyway, whether it's by a mile or just a tiny bit, it's gonna make a difference and I think we're gonna be alright in the end.
I've gotten too glum for my own good so I will end here. I know that contradicts the whole mood of this post, but, well.
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