Soul

My physical state is as destroyed as my nails - scraps of midnight blue thanks to super glue and acetone. This block, this week especially, has been so so draining. The toughest week yet, even though the modules mean more to me than before. I don't think I've ever worked so hard in my life, not even for exams, yet looking back now I'm not sure if I worked hard enough. Have you ever felt so stressed that your body shakes while you walk? How sleeping past 1am every night eats at your flesh without you even realising it. I'm disappointed that I'm so weak and that I distance myself from people. I'm not sure if I am taken for granted or if it's just mind games. Yeah I guess it's more than physical problems now. But I will live for the small things and I will live for myself.
I present to you photos which we are very proud of and in which I am not smiling because I am in no mood to smile at the moment. The happier ones will come on happier days. Meanwhile I need to figure out what I should do this holiday. Do me a favour and listen to some old-school rock and roll while looking at this will you?
I think I will keep up the dark nails, they make me feel good.
My throat feels like a drought.