Shit happens

Four walls, thanks for protecting me. The sunlight will not see me and I seek more comfort in inanimate objects that actual people. So I apologise in advance if I offend you. I don't really want anybody to see me anyway.
My best friend is now a playlist and I think the only thing keeping me from exploding is the fan.
It sucks it sucks it sucks it sucks it sucks
Of all times, submission week. Did I do something wrong??? Am I supposed to get a lesson out of this???
I feel so ugly right now. All these horrid red spots bring me so much annoyance. I feel like they're biting into me and the best part: it's just going to get worse. I just want to get this over and done with and never have to experience this again. I might be exaggerating to call it hell but I think different people have different perceptions of hell so if feeling weak, helpless, left out and painful qualifies, this is my 2014 hell.
Not too keen on complaining and wallowing in self-pity but I just need to vent my frustration. It's so bloody hard to be positive when I feel so hollow but I will try. Going to eat my pills on time, put a straw in my mouth every 2 minutes and just try to put myself in a happy, if not neutral, place.
Even though I really don't want to do anything and just like, lie down, sleeping is actually not going well as of now. So I probably will do things. God, I'm done, I'm going to end here. I better get well by  the next block.