The extraordinary ordinary

I'm back from Japan! Feels good to be home. Anyway while I'm working on putting together the photos I took there, thought I'd spend this very un-happening day writing about things I've been meaning to write about ever since I experienced them. Today could have been one of days where everything is wrong. My physical state is absolute rubbish. My mental state is absolute rubbish. I just want to lay in one position and close my eyes, but then I feel so lethargic my bones ache. My skin is rough and dry, and my hair is laced with uneven kinks. My shoulders cave inwards and everywhere I go, my head is hung low. It could have been one of days where I'm just dying for daylight to fade away, so I can fall asleep and restart. Countless times I've let that occur, but today I decided that wallowing in self-pity does nothing and I don't want to succumb to that. So I'm going to do a 10-minute workout, then turn on the computer, play some chill music and let my fingers run on the keyboard. All vanity and superficiality is stripped away and I just want to lift my spirits up.

I watched About Time on the plane to Osaka and it is now one of my favourite movies. Now heads up here, it's probably not everyone's kind of thing, but if you're a sucker for romance like me, I think this will do the trick. Apparently a "romantic dramedy" haha, it just talks about things that I find important which are love and fate. I bet you "anti-rom-coms" are cringing right now, but wait! Love isn't just between a guy and a girl here, it's way more than that. In fact the parts which made me cry (yes, cry) didn't involve a guy and a girl, but a dad and a son. Okay, don't worry I'll try not to spoil anything but basically the movie's about this man, Tim, who finds out from his dad that the men in his family have the ability to travel in time (but only points in time where they have had some personal involvement in, so nowhere before they were born). Well the time-travel aspect of it is pretty complicated and there are some loopholes actually but let's just ignore that for now. The rest of it is good!! So, he uses this ability to help him meet the love of his life and fix any mistakes that follow. Can I just say that Rachel McAdams is very gorgeous?
The main point is, this movie made me think about fate, and I think about fate a lot in general. The idea of being able to go back in time and right all your wrongs is awfully tempting, but sometimes the wrongs you do lead you to where you need to be. If you fix all your past mistakes, sure you could be happier in that moment, but what if it causes you to be in a place you wouldn't have preferred in the first place? I mean I've said and done a hell lot of stupid things which I wish I could have unsaid and undone, but we're here now and we're alright. At least we're reminded not to slip back into the versions of ourselves that we loathe, you know?
People always talk about finding your soulmate, and for a while I was always thinking about how one little decision could completely affect where you go and who you meet in the future. The bad habit of over-worrying about the future when I'm still so occupied in the present will be the death of me man. Maybe I still believe in soulmates, but there's really no need to be so uptight about searching for one, because I've come to realize that the best things and people in your life aren't there because you planned for it. They come when you least expect it, and I guess that's why you learn to cherish them. So if you want, go watch About Time and tell me what you think! Here's to happier times everybody. I'm going to survive this week x